Thursday, May 05, 2005

Haiz... sorry for the long long waited updated post... had been sick the whole week this week... Actually got sick on Monday... wanted to go see doc but its a public holiday!! so i have to wait until tuesday then go see.. Its hell for mi these few days... I still have to work when i'm sick... Ke lian ritez??
Still feeling beri terrible even having the medicine for 2 days... Haiz... Been working last few days so nutthing much to update...
But i met Wendy on monday at her home there to have a chit chat session.. She drank 2 cans of beer then a bit high liaoz.. lolz... I cannot drink much so i drank 1 can... But after drinking 1/2 of it i started coughing like hell so i stopped... Haha... Even more lousy... Have been feeling beri terrible that day so my face look like i'm tired... Haiz.. How can i meet Wendy with this kind of face?? AaRrGgHh.... But i juz too happy to be able to meet her... Haha... While she's having her snack, we are being called by 2 policeman for a spot check.. haha.... first time having spot check with her... -_- But we were fine... maybe i'm unlucky...
Then on Tuesday i went to see doctor.. Wah the medicine beri powerful ar... I went home had my dinner and ate the medicine.. and the effect was almost immediate.... i started to feel drowsy and sleepy... So i went for a shower and i went to bed straight away.... And the time was 10.15pm.. broke my earliest record... Lolz...
Yesterday went to meet Wendy after work.. She said she juz had her pay so wan to go shopping so i accompany her lohz... hahaha... I'm most willing to accompany her... She went to PS to look for Abercombie t-shirt but cannot find the pattern she like so she feels a bit disappointed.. So i will try my best to find for her... Then we went to Mr bean to have my dinner and had some drinks before going home... Had a great time chatting with her yesterday... Feel beri happy... She was amazed when i used my tongue to tie 2 knots on a cherry stick.... Haha... Tat was easy anyway.... Lolz... But she was like beri amazed becoz onli her Bro noes how to do it... haha...
After that i fetched her home before heading home myself...
Juz woke up at 12.30pm and i will be going to Charles's shop at Serangoon soon.. So until my next update... Buaiz...

I'm here not to realli blog on wat happen to mi this few days...
I'm here actually to apologize to SomeOne Special...
Sorry for pissing u off juz now... i did not purposely call u during ur work hrs.. I juz thought that u had finished work so i call u... At least i can get to hear ur voice...
I noe i'm stupid... I'm a crazy fool... I'm juz a passer-by in ur life...
But I'm oso the one who foolishly fall so deep in love with u.... I can't control myself... I had insomnia becoz of u... My mind is so full of u.... Your face keeps appearing when i close my eyes...
Maybe it's a one-sided love from mi but i neber regretted i made this choice... This naive boy here will not call u anymore... becoz calling U need a lot of courage... And maybe i'm too stupid to even think that u will sumday be with mi...
I will always be loving u... Missing u...
Tkcare always...

Yesterday had a beri good nite rest.. Woke up at 2pm this morning.. haha... Yesterday chatted with Wendy till 4 plus then sleep... Had a beri good conversation... We had a lot of laughter throughout.. Dunnoe y.. We seems to have endless topic to tok... She agreed to go watch movie with mi todae... haha.. i was beri excited and maybe tat's y i can sleep well last nite...
Todae woke up at 2 plus.. Found out that my hp line is totally cut off liaoz... Sianz 1/2 man... Have to pay the bill ASAP.... If not cannot sms and tok with Wendy...
I changed and went to meet Wendy at City Hall Mrt... She looked beri tired todae when we met... maybe becoz yesterday tok until too late then she too tired as she have to go to skool todae... Then we walked to Suntec together... We shop along the way and she saw a lot of things she likes... I had it all noted down... hehe....
Went to buy the tickets for the show Creeps... Coz jeff said its a nice show so we went to watch it... the show is at 5.45 we bought it at 4.45 so we have 1 hr time to wait.. So she accompany mi go eat my lunch as i havent eaten anything...
After that we went to the Fountain and smoke and chatted a lot... After tat then we went to watch the movie...
Creep is one of the show u wouldn't wan to see becoz its a freaking disgusting show without any story line... Stupid jeff intro mi see this kind of movie... realli regretted watching this movie... haiz...
We behaved like a couple but in fact we are not... Her heart is still with her bf... I can't do anything... She ask mi whether i wan to be with her.... i told her that "its not whether i wan to be with u or not.. if u ask mi, i will say that i want... but the decision lies with u... not mi.... "Becoz she have a bf... and i cannot make the decision.. becoz i dun wanna be the 3rd party... So i told her i will wait...
After that I see her home then i make my way home... juz reached home not long ago... feel beri tired... and may go to sleep now...
So long ppl.... Till then...

Beri beri beri tiring day for mi... Slept at 4 plus yesterday... Can't get to sleep.. Feel so moody.. Dunnoe y... Then todae have to wake up go for work... Todae work is realli tiring... Fucking shit.. have to wash the whole day's plate... You noe how much plate is that? i use much becoz i cannot count... Its about 7 pails of plates... nearly killed mi... after washing i was like lying dead on the chair...
Luckily todae finish early at 7pm finish liaoz.. So able to reach home early todae.. yay... But i dun feel in the least happy todae... had been feeling unhappy these 2 days... Dunnoe y... Juz feel that my heart feels empty, lacking of sumthing... which led mi to insomnia... AarRrgh.. dun wanna tok about it...
Yesterday went for my IPPT.. And I PASSED!!! YES!! After trying the IPPT for 3 times i passed at last... Now i no need to go into army so early.. haha... Have to go to CMPB this coming monday to submit my IPPT report so that they can defer mi to a later date... I heard that the July's batch are full so maybe i will be going in at October... haha...
Then todae my whole body is like aching all over... even moving a bit it hurts... imagine i have to work the whole day todae... Shag.....
Now my mind is empty.. dunnoe wat to write coz i'm not in the best of mood to think of anything.. Juz noeing that i'm missing sumone... sumone who i will never get to forget...
Heres another quote... which reflects my feeling...
Sometimes when you look back on a situation, you realize it wasn't all you thought it was. A beautiful girl walked into your life. You fell in love. Or did you? Maybe it was only a childish infatuation, or maybe just a brief moment of vanity
Henry Bromel, Northern Exposure, The Big Kiss, 1991

Its now 2:30am in the morning.. and yet i'm not sleeping... Can't get to sleep... Feel so down suddenly... But i will remember todae...
Yesterday i met Wendy at her home there... prepare to give her a surprise by buying her favourite pasta and drink to prepare for her to reach home after work. I know she have to attend a course at 5:30pm then have to work after that and sure doesn't eat anything yet and she must have been realli hungry. So i specially went down and bought her those things.
We had a heart to heart toking session yesterday nite... Feel so comfortable to be able to find someone who i can confide my problems with...
She went home after that as its quite late.. i reach her home there at 10:15pm then i waited there until 12:00am then she reach... i think the wait is worthwhile as long as i can get to see her...
But when she reach home she told mi not to wait for her anymore... She says her bf called and cried thinking she had an affair and she doesn't wan to hurt him. I totally understand her situation becoz of my past experience, Eve. If those ppl who always read my blog will noe, there's once a gal name Eve who i love a lot before.
I told her(Wendy) i didn't have the intention to realli be with her... Becoz i dun wanna be the third party and i noe the ending will not be good... I told her that i realli like her but i dun wanna break her and her bf up... But i said i will wait for her... Unless one day she and her bf is getting married then i will give up... And i told her that for now i onli wan to be her "Zhi zi", someone who i can talk heart to heart with her and vice versa.
My mind is in a state of confusion rite now... She keeps appearing in my mind and i can't possibly erase it. Yet she told mi that the day i waiting for will never come.... my heart fell from the top of the mountain to the bottom of a deep valley.
For now i can onli wish her the best of luck and happiness.
I shall end my blog with a quote... this quote touches mi a lot and hope it touches everyone in the world...........

The hours I spend with you I look upon as sort of a perfumed garden, a dim twilight, and a fountain singing to it... you and you alone make me feel that I am alive....Other men it is said have seen angels, but I have seen thee and thou art enough.
~George Moore~

Nobody can ever know wat happened to mi todae... Todae is Wednesday and 2 more days before my IPP ends... And I'M SENT BACK AGAINNNNNNN!!!!!! I realli tot that i am able to clear the ipp as its ending reallll soon...
All becoz of mi lahz... Too lazy liaoz lohz... I should have woke up after calling Wendy... Y i fall asleep again... ArRgGHhh... kana sent back.... I arrive DBS vickers at 8:40am. Juz late for 10 mins!! ARrGgHhH!! Nutthing to say... Becoz i promised never to be later again...
All because of mi.... T_T......
I was heading to Charles office when my CC(Mdm Tay) call mi... And asked mi where am i... i say i at Serangoon she say i lie to her!!! She say she heard "PASIR RIS" at the MRT station... Lame rite... i told her that if she dun believe mi i can let the control station man listen 1 lohz... Duhz....
She wans mi to reach skool at 11am... And i arrive juz in time and i prepare myself for the worst... A big scolding by her... She scold scold scold and i saw a lot of my frens and i beri beri paiseh sia.... And she wants mi to be in skool from 8:30am to 5:30pm!!! AarRrGghH!!! i tot i left the company liaoz can get a good sleep until afternoon tomolo... but i'm wrong... She say i have to fulfil my 12 weeks and have to finish IPP IN SKOOL!!! sianz diao sia... haiz...
But luckily my OIC never fail mi..... She passed mi but release mi early 2 days and cut my pay for 2 days... i was so happy went i heard that... But after my CC call mi, my mood change.... sad...
I thought today can be able to meet Wendy as she finishes skool early todae.. But all are changed by 1 sentence from my CC... I have to type a apologising letter to my OIC and have to do a report on wat i had done during the 12 weeks.... The report muz be 5 PAGES LONG!!! haiz... No choice... in order to pass i have to LL listen to her lohz...
Gonna stop here for now... have to go and do the fucking report liaoz...
Ciaoz....................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................

Todae is Tuesday.. and 3 more days its the end of my career in DBS vickers.. haha.. how i wish i can leave immediately.... :X I realli cannot take this kind of job, which needs u to sit in the office for hours... And expected, i fell asleep... ALMOST EVERYDAY!!! I need to work those kind of job which need u to move her move there, makes u busy with work so that time passes more quickly and WON'T FALL ASLEEP!! haha...
Juz "woke up" from my nap.. haha... Todae got 2 senior neber work... so more easier to sleep as 1 of the senior's seat cannot be seen by the camera...
Yesterday i slept at 2 plus... forgot exactly wat time... Was chatting with wendy till tat time then go sleep.... Yesterday my internet realli pisses mi off... I juz got back my internet(singnet broadband) today after paying the EXPENSIVE bill!!! And at first everything was fine while i surf the net but after a while it d/c... And the problem is, it dun allow mi to reconnect even after i restarted my com for many time... Tiu... Fucking fed up my singnet now... So expensive then slow then needs to dial up and fucking lousy with a lot of problems.... So people... if u wan internet dun go for singnet... die die oso go for Cable...
I actually applied for cable 1 1/2 yrs ago but after i paid for the modem and everything, starhub call mi back after 2 hrs saying that my block still dun support SCV as the port is still not connected to the server... Then i LPPL have to bring the things back to the starhub shop... after refunding my money i got no choice but to go for singnet broadband.... haiz... And after 2 months of broadband, Starhub call mi to say that my block's connection is done and ask mi if i wan to apply for Cable... Wah then i beri beri regret that i apply for Singnet.... Haiz... wat to do? i'm bound by singnet for 2 years....
Yesterday my CC(mdm Tay) replied my email regarding the reseting of my password for my skool email... and i called the skool's helpdesk and told them that i want to reset my skool's password... and imagine wat they say? "Sorry, i cannot change the password for u... how i noe u r from NYP? U can show mi any prove or not? For security reason i cannot allow u to change the password... Please find some thing to prove that u r a student then i can be able to reset ur password...."
Wat the fuck is this? If i can go down to skool and change i wouldn't have call u blardy bastard, son of a bitch.... I'm in the middle of a fucking attachment and how to go down to skool.... And i need the password beri beri urgently. i have to log in to the skool's email to see the time and date for the last chance for mi to go for the IPPT test... If not i realli have to go in Army at 9th June liaoz... I DUN WAN!! i wan to pass the IPPT and go in 1 month later... let mi enjoy 1 more month then go in lahz... I already taken off on monday liaoz... if i cannot confirm the time then i have to give up the chance liaoz... KNN i forgot to ask that bastard's name... if i noe i will send a blardy long complaint letter to the skool principal... And trust mi.. my complaint letter beri power 1...
Yesterday chatted a lot of things with her... She's wasn't in the best of mood and i dun feel good oso... dunnoe why.. So i try means and ways to cheer her up... And after my perserverence she smiled... I'm happy that i can make her happy.... Becoz "Ni Kuai Le Jiu Shi Wo kuai Le"... I juz hope that everyday from now she can hang her smile on her face... The rest doesn't realli matter... Coz she smile is the most gorgeous smile in the whole world...
Gonna stop here for now.... Typed quite long todae.... Juz to vent my frustration on certain things.. haha... i feel a lot better now... so tkcare ppl... Till my next blog...............................